hey.

What should I do if I feel so down that I binge on food and after which feel so down for putting on WAY TOO MUCH and continue binging?

What should I do if I feel so lonely and scared and turn to my side and no one is around and pick up my phone and no one to call?

What should I do to get myself out of this fucked up mess and just be like that Deborah I used to know.

I’m tired.

camera craze

ding dong ding dong!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/album.php?aid=98668&id=707735688

My camera wish list. I am getting depressed. I need to work please. Let all jobs be successful. PLEASE??

And So I have revived.

After a whole crazy ass semester, I managed to survive it all and reached the first official day of my Summer Holidays! (though I don’t see what’s Summer in Singapore.) As always, I am looking for a job so that I can occupy myself with some worthy jobs.
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Updates (from my last entry):
1. I came back from Hong Kong. I apologize for the lack of pictures because my camera stayed in Hong Kong while I came back.
2. I am officially mid way through my studies.
3. I ♥ my awesomeness friends
4. I miss my friends.
5. I want to purchase Nikon FM2 as well as a DSLR
6. I am leaving for London and others on 23 July and will only be back one month later
7. I want to go on a diet but don’t want to go on THAT diet.
8. I am craving for some shopping session but am so broke I can’t believe myself.
9. I seem to have lost the ultra sense of clubbing.
10. Driving is expensive.

Therefore, I need to get a job. It’s all about the job now.

Oh dear..

I have just finished my shoot a few hours ago and now I am currently stuck in school trying to do my digitizing. Bad choice. I am about to give up any second from now. I am so tired, so sick of school. Not to mention I have to go over to Asra’s place later to drop the keys to the hotel (a place where we keep our equipments in school) where she will return it for us. -_- Shoot went pretty much ok but I did over run and I canceled a shot. I am thinking if I have enough to cover for my end product. I am still thinking if I should be letting Alvin edit for me or should I do it on my own instead. Hmm.. Dilemmas.

In a few hours time, I will be at the airport awaiting to reach the shopping and food paradise – HONG KONG! (((( : I have to say I am not feeling any excitement at this current point of time. Being sick(literally) and tired does not help one bit. ) : Why like that? I seem to be looking forward to Starbucks later though. HAHA! How strange. Not looking forward to HongKong but looking forward to Starbucks.

After this shoot, I am wondering if I will feel a little happier for school. Since I think I have more or less cleared a few major assignments. Sighhh.. So depressing. -_-

I am currently emo-ing. Small Time. Just a little bit.

Finally. An Update.

I know it has been ages. But I didn’t have mood. And honestly, I don’t have mood today too. HAHA! But currently waiting for TZ to ask her dad if she can use the car so that we can head out to watch a mid night movie. hahah!
Anyhow, things have been going pretty bad for me. School’s beyond craziness. The amount of work I tell you. OMG. Because of that.. I am getting 1 – 2 hours of sleep everyday besides weekends. I think the worse day is Friday (not today though). I will have little sleep PLUS i will sleep EXTREMELY late. hahahah! Weekends create hurricane in the world of deborah’s body clock. So yes. Imagine the life I am living in.
Basically, school and club is what my life is about for a while now. It is starting to drain me.. but I’m sure I can do it!

OH!!! I AM GOING TO HONGKONG FOR HK FILMART AND OF COZ SHOPPING!!!! Leaving on 23 March and coming back on 30th. But like I said, school work’s a bitch. So I better prepare loads of coffee and red bull to pull me through dark dark times. hahah!

Hmm.. I was looking at my new year resolutions.. Let’s see what I have done so far.

1. Complete my first 10km run. I stopped running for a while now.
2. Pack my room and keep my room neat. HA! FAILING BADLY!
3. Return back to my diet and maintain my weight what diet??
4. Cut down on partying (YES. YOU READ RIGHT. But this is still a maybe. hahaha!) i think i am canceling this point out. HAHA!
5. Work to save up for all my expensive wants. Hmm.. I think I am trying?
6. Get organized. I’ve got a planner!!!
7. [relationship issues] SECRET! you know what? I can’t remember what this is. but i don’t think I fulfilled it.
8. [relationship issues] SECRET! same. forgot.
9. Get as many cameras as possible (antique, lomo, DSLR) working on it working on it!!!

Haha! Seems like I am not doing well for my resolutions.

** Update.
Not going out already. But feel like having something to do.. Hmm.. What should I do….

Welcome 2009

My darling Macbook Pro accompanied me through last year’s countdown into this year. A year full of surprises and hope. So I took a moment away from WuZun and XiaoZhu, to think about 2008. About the major events of 2008. I entered 2008 with a Bang, literally. 1 year after my accident, here I am sitting at home watching dramas, avoiding any possible accidents out there. I wondered if I have changed from during the year. How much have I’ve changed, for the good or for the worse? Have I learnt anything during the year? As always, I set New Year Resolutions for myself. I am hoping it does not end up forgotten by the end of January.

Here goes, my New Year Resolutions
1. Complete my first 10km run.
2. Pack my room and keep my room neat.
3. Return back to my diet and maintain my weight
4. Cut down on partying (YES. YOU READ RIGHT. But this is still a maybe. hahaha!)
5. Work to save up for all my expensive wants.
6. Get organized.
7. [relationship issues] SECRET!
8. [relationship issues] SECRET!
9. Do well in school? Get as many cameras as possible (antique, lomo, DSLR)

And. Erm. World Peace? Better Economy? HAHA!

I miss my friends a lot today. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.

Anyhow. HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxoxo,
deb!

it’s been long

It’s been nearly a month since I last updated. I forgot about the existence of my blog until jill told me to head to hers to check out her latest entry. Oh my. I’ve been a bad child. What am I to do? It’s been a havoc month.
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December has always been THE month of the year. With my birthday, Christmas, New Year. How can one enough time to celebrate all events with all friends?

This year, my birthday celebration was SPLENDID. I love my friends. ALL OF THEM. Whether they came or not. Whether I spent time with them or not. (I really feel bad for disregarding some of you guys. I really do.)

Christmas seems to be a blur. I spent eve of eve of Christmas with the chapmanites and eve of Christmas with my loves (subjective I know, but I refuse to call you guys the toa payoh people afterall, we’ve outgrown toa payoh. HAHA!) and Christmas itself at home alone with my com (with wu zun and luo zhi xiang playing at my com). I used to have post Christmas celebration too but this year, I’m working. (: Nope. I’m not dreading work. Even though there isn’t much for me to do right now, but nothing beats production and pre production. I’m in love with my industry. (:

Here comes New Year. I have no idea what I should do this new year. It’s only a week from now and I’ve got to start planning before everything gets booked up like Christmas. I want to meet up with Jia, Marc, Matt. I MISS YOU GUYS!!! I want to meet up with Jill and TZ too! I want to hang around with my all time girlfriends! I want to stay up with the chapmanites. So many things to do so little time.

I need an assistant to plan my time/schedule. HAHA! When I’m an assistant myself. An assistant needing an assistant. I love the way my mind works sometimes. So random. HAHA!

Friends and Family, I love you guys. Without you guys, I’m nothing.

“MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!”
May all your wishes come true and may the new year be smooth and no one gets affected by the depressed economy.

xoxo,
deb.

HOLGA LOMO!!

I collected my HOLGA today!! WOO!! LOVING IT!! Now I can’t wait to head down to Penisula to get the film to go out for some shooting spree! Heee…

Retail Therapy

I LOVE RETAIL THERAPY. It never fails to make me a happy child. Went to Sitex with mummy today and I swear I hate IT fair. Do Singaporeans have so much money to spare every few months? The crowd I have to face to ask about a camera and place an order. The queue I have to queue to make payment. THE QUEUE I HAVE TO QUEUE TO COLLECT. Omg. But anyhow. I’m a happy child.

Got a new camera – Canon IXUS 870 (Gold)

Got a external hard drive too. 500GB. According to poh, I’m going to store porn in it. Haha! Oh well…
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Shopping keeps my mind off things and now I am happy. ((: I should just shop more. PLEASE I NEED A JOB NOW. NOW.

xoxo,
deb

Bitch of the year.

I remember how I used to wish and hope that I’m THE bitch back in Secondary School. Like it was the cool thing to be called a bitch and all. (Haha. I know right?) But right now, when I am truely doing some really bad bitchy things, I don’t know if I can have the same mentality as before. I feel so caught between being the bitch and wanting to be the good person. I mean. Obviously both sides have their own attractive treat of the day and right now I kindna think the bitch side offers more attractive prices as compared to the nice/good person side.

I’ve been thinking for these past few days and I have not come to a conclusion. I guess I had. But when I act upon my decisive thoughts, nothing was resolved. I guess the saying of ‘it takes 2 hands to clap’ should play a very good part here. So I guess I’ve come to another conclusion.

To take one step at a time and to be cautious of landmines.

xoxo,
deb